" I have been living in a difficult circumstances "

that is my answer to your question ( s ) if there is any in relating to my childhood age ., and years after that because I was at the wrong place at the wrong time of sorts.

and I was told 

' duduk diam diam  jangan merungut'
" bersyukur dengan apa yang ada "

as an orphan , I obeyed  , and count my blessing  

and to make matter worst 

before I could speak 

I was told to listen

and there I was , listening to the wrong people.


I will be to one who gets what is left behind.